Five minute Friday: Test
Friday. The day when people are given a prompt and write for five minutes. Today's prompt is TEST. And so the test has come. The moment of truth. As I pause and breathe and open my mouth in a new place with new people who have barely known me two summers. I've lived with this for most of my adult life but you know it never gets any easier. Hannah West describes living with depression when she feels well: 'The attacker that threatened my life still lives in my house.' He has attacked me again. And yet again I feel I should have been able to stop him. But the truth is that there is an inevitability to this horrible illness which in my mind is a bit like Voldemort, he who must not be named. I am sick. Yes I pray. Yes I believe. Yes I have asked God for healing. Yes I live mindfully. Yes I meditate. Yes I try to have proper rest. Yes I have work-life balance Yes I exercise. Yes I tick all the boxes that people think I should Yes depres...