Earth is crammed with heaven

My name's Karen and I'm afraid of September. It's not an irrational thing. September has form. This month has often been disastrous for my family. Depression Illness Frustration Overwork And last year, dealing with the sudden death of my father Mean that when I think about the coming month I feel anxious Overwrought Afraid. And this Sept has lots of possibilities for fear As between the five of us Two of us are settling into new jobs One leaves home to go to Uni One goes to college And one goes to a new school. So you see? I have every reason to be afraid. And already the anxiety has started And tears come too readily And I want to lock us all away And keep us safe. I read a blog about Isaiah 51:12 today "I, I'm the one comforting you. What are you afraid of, or who?.... You've forgotten me, God who made you." (MSG) And while it's not completely true for me, It is partly. I haven't forgotten God But maybe I'...

Last year On this day We lost my Dad. Suddenly His heart failed And he was gone. Today feels strange. I have tried to be normal. But inside I feel numb. Alone. Walking around like a zombie. Struggling to answer straightforward questions. Mind anywhere but where it's supposed to be. It won't last. I know this. But today is a day of intense emotion Vivid memories And the painful reality that Dad is no more. But his love His voice that I can still hear in my head His smile His laugh His big bear hugs Every good memory I have of him These are the things that will last. "Weeping may endure (last) for a night... Joy comes in the morning."