Saturday, 27 October 2012

Life in The Shadow

It's just over 6 months since I worked publicly.
The depression that knocked me off my feet yet again, is lifting.
Some powerful prayer over the last few weeks has reminded me that I am God's princess,
and he wants me whole. Some healing has taken place.

I've also been trying to take better care of myself.
Those who know me well know that I'm more blessed by chocolate than carrots.
However eating better, walking a lot, and resting when I need to has helped me in my recovery.

The grief at the losses we have suffered over the past 6 months hits us like a freak wave in a calm sea at times, but we go with it, and I'm sensing that's a good thing.

At the end of April, I couldn't see that I would ever work again.
This life as God's co-worker was too hard.
But as I heard His voice responding to my cries say, "I know..."
And his answer to my questions was just, "Trust Me..."
Somehow we have made it through to today.

Today I know that God, my Father does know. I trust Him.
And His word to me over these past few weeks has been
"She that dwells within the secret place of the most High,
shall find rest in the shadow of the Almighty....
He will cover you with his feathers,
He will shelter you with his wings,
His faithful promises are your armour and protection"
Psalm 91:1-4

These are now the words on the post-its around my house.
The boys humour me, but I've put them in strategic places where I hope they'll read and remember them too. (I recued the one that fell down the toilet...)

Thank you for those who are hanging in there with us.
Thank you to those who have taken on our responsibilities as neither of us are able to work at the moment.
Thank you to those who are praying, and those that give us verses and pictures that you feel God is saying to you for us.
Please carry on praying, especially for the boys.
You are a blessing to all of us.
And as we thank God for you, we pray that you too will find rest in His shadow.

Friday, 5 October 2012


This was the view as I perched on our decking yesterday
to drink my coffee.

And then I looked closer...

I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places,
so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel,
who summons you by name.
Isaiah 45:3

Wednesday, 3 October 2012

God on the M25

God came close on the M25 yesterday.
Not for the usual reasons of oaths sworn by drivers,
people going too fast,
or even those who think they own the road.

Instead, God used a very old CD.
It's title of 'New worship songs' is 12 years old,
but I put it on because I was on my own in the car and fancied a sing.
Some of them were familiar songs,
but as I sang I noticed a phrase kept on coming through.
"The Father's Embrace."

One song particularly gripped me as I sang.
Next thing I knew I was smiling,
as the God who makes himself real in my circumstances,
surprised me yet again.

You see, for a girl who's recently lost her Dad,
and is missing his big bear hugs,
it's great to know that my heavenly father 'embraces' me.
He doesn't hug, smooch or cuddle,
but He embraces me.
He lifts me in His big strong arms, and holds me securely.

Here's the song
It's based on Psalm 27, which is also worth a read.
Let Him embrace you today.

You are my anchor,
My light and my salvation.
You are my refuge,
My heart will not fear.
Though my foes surround me on every hand,
They will stumble and fall
While in grace I stand.
In my day of trouble
You hide me and set me above
To sing this song of love.

One thing I will ask of You, this will I pray:
To dwell in Your house, O Lord, every day,
To gaze upon Your lovely face,
And rest in the Father’s embrace.

Teach me Your way, Lord,
Make straight the path before me.
Do not forsake me, my hope is in You.
As I walk through life, I am confident
I will see Your goodness with every step,
And my heart directs me to seek You
In all that I do,
So I will wait for You.

Stuart Townend
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