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Life in The Shadow

It's just over 6 months since I worked publicly. The depression that knocked me off my feet yet again, is lifting. Some powerful prayer over the last few weeks has reminded me that I am God's princess, and he wants me whole. Some healing has taken place. I've also been trying to take better care of myself. Those who know me well know that I'm more blessed by chocolate than carrots. However eating better, walking a lot, and resting when I need to has helped me in my recovery. The grief at the losses we have suffered over the past 6 months hits us like a freak wave in a calm sea at times, but we go with it, and I'm sensing that's a good thing. At the end of April, I couldn't see that I would ever work again. This life as God's co-worker was too hard. But as I heard His voice responding to my cries say, "I know..." And his answer to my questions was just, "Trust Me..." Somehow we have made it through to today. Today I kn

Treasures

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This was the view as I perched on our decking yesterday to drink my coffee.  And then I looked closer... I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name. Isaiah 45:3

God on the M25

God came close on the M25 yesterday. Not for the usual reasons of oaths sworn by drivers, people going too fast, or even those who think they own the road. Instead, God used a very old CD. It's title of 'New worship songs' is 12 years old, but I put it on because I was on my own in the car and fancied a sing. Some of them were familiar songs, but as I sang I noticed a phrase kept on coming through. "The Father's Embrace." One song particularly gripped me as I sang. Next thing I knew I was smiling, as the God who makes himself real in my circumstances, surprised me yet again. You see, for a girl who's recently lost her Dad, and is missing his big bear hugs, it's great to know that my heavenly father 'embraces' me. He doesn't hug, smooch or cuddle, but He embraces me. He lifts me in His big strong arms, and holds me securely. Here's the song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-N6tihSBZow It's based on Psalm 27, wh