Wednesday, 31 December 2014

New Years Eve

I'm not one for New Year Resolutions.
January can be tough enough without adding the F word of fail
to my weak attempts at getting thin and fit.

However I have learnt a few things this year which I am happy to share.

1. God is everywhere.
I mean really everywhere.
There is no place where I am that He is not.
So every fear
Every failure
Any revelation I never knew
Is known
And felt
And understood...
I mean really understood by him.
Nothing without him.

2. I don't need to rush.
God told me this on Christmas Eve.
Take your time.
Be measured.
Deliberate.
I don't accomplish any more by rushing.
It just sends my anxiety levels rocketing.
He knows what I need to do.
Trust him.

3. Other people's opinions vary.
Enormously.
What they think has no bearing on anything.
Ooh that was a tough one for a recovering people-pleaser to hear.
You can imagine.
Ultimately
The only opinion that counts is God's.
And He often expects less of me than I expect of myself,
and certainly what other people expect.
I am a person of integrity.
It's between me and Him alone.

4. Rest.
I need it.
I don't function well without it.
I refuse to be one of those people (especially officers)
who wear their busyness
Like a badge of honour.
It's not big
It's not clever
And it's not God's best for us.
I will have Sabbath.
Often.

5. Love
I want to give big love this year
To my husband
My sons
My family
My friends
My 'flock'
And to those whom God places in my path,
Or I in theirs.

So there you go
My New Year's Eve ponderings.
Thank you for sharing my life this year.
May you be blessed and be a blessing.

Much love
Karen
x

Wednesday, 17 December 2014

Emmanuel

He wept

And His heart?
It broke in two.

With every cry

Of fear
Anguish
Pain
Grief
Loss
Disbelief

And it breaks
Over
And
Over
For all eternity.

And His name?
His name shall be called Emmanuel.

Emmanuel.

God

With

Us.

And  them.


Tuesday, 16 December 2014

Surprise!

This is the first Christmas for several years that I haven't set out in search of Christmas joy.
You know that lament 'I don't feel Christmassy.'
So we grit our teeth, and try our best to make the feelings come.

This year is different somehow.
Maybe because time does heal
At least partly.

But I think it's because I'm learning to live in the moment.
The practice of mindfulness has helped.
And in that moment it's ok.

It's ok to feel happy
Or sad
Or tired
Or grumpy
Or full of beans
Or overjoyed
Or overwhelmed
Or....

It's ok.
Truly.

Stop
Breathe
Remember.

He is Immanuel
God with us.
Right here
Right now.

God with us may not change our circumstances
Our disappointments or frustrations
But He shares it
Feels it
Lives it.

Immanuel
The wonder of Christmas
That God left the splendour of his world
To get messy in ours.

He knows
He feels
He loves
Oh how He loves.

Immanuel